I arrived home safely from the SCBWI show in NY, after Air Canada’s best attempts to strand me in Montreal for a few extra hours, and our plane got in only 45 minutes late. Sitting in airport lounges for longer than expected gave me lots of time to journal about my experiences and reflect upon WHY I feel so strongly that this is what I need to do.
What is this hunger to speak or draw stories into being? What is this restless gnawing in the pit of our souls that demands release? No wonder the creative process is often compared to giving birth... the travails of loving something enough to it change you as it grows inside of you... and the sheer work/pain/sweat of bringing it into the world where you set it free to grow and have a life of its own...
The feel of holding the first and second books that I illustrated were similar to the wonder that swept through me as I held each of my daughters in my arms for the first time. Each one was unique. Both of them were different from the other and yet that same swell of emotion poured forth from some deep inner well of my being. “Look, World! Look at what I have helped to create!”
In an instant, all of the work and pain and sweat are forgotten in some glorious euphoria of pride and you know that you would do it all again. That you would put yourself in that place of vulnerability and doubt and sweat and angst because it is simply what you need to do.
I wish I didn’t have meetings today. All I really want to do is paint after all the ideas I got this weekend!
Sunday, February 01, 2009
All Done and Just Beginning...
It’s like finishing a story. There is something about an ending of a book when you can still think about the characters and the magic that you’ve just been involved in lingers with you for a while... That’s how I feel now that the SCBWI conference is over here in NY. It will take more than a few days to process all that I have seen and heard... it will linger with me as I am getting back to family and routine, percolate at the back of my head as I fall asleep and be in mind every time I pick up pen or paint brush.
Not that it wasn’t also fun to wander out into New York City this afternoon and gawk like a total tourist!!
Times Square was very cool!
I am glad that my kids didn’t see how huge the Toys R Us was here, but I did have to pose in front of the Animal Crossing display. I would have been even more excited if it had been for Harvest Moon Island of Happiness!
The guy in the giant panda suit was just TOO funny!!
We walked all the way up to the sushi restaurant that had been recommended to us, only to discover that it didn’t open for another 2 hours!! We found a tiny little restaurant that did pizza and each got a slice before we ate each other then wandered the 8 blocks or so back to the hotel.
Since then, I have been packing and percolating ideas, dreaming and doodling and thinking about how badly my fingers are itching to pick up a paintbrush when I get home!