Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Back To MUSING Out Loud!


A year ago, I hugged my father goodbye for what ended up being the last time.  His huge frame that had seemed so strong and invincible to me as a child, felt so fragile in my arms that night. 

We’ve had almost a full year of feeling fragile as a family...

From parents being sick to daughters getting injured or bullied, from braces to wisdom teeth that need to come out, from friends going through challenges to changes in all of our lives.

It has been interesting to say the least.

Most of it was just too personal to blog about.  I’ve discovered that I am a much more private extrovert that I’d ever dreamed, at least about the inner things.

Learning to let go to some things while holding on to others was an important part of my healing and my decision to narrow my blogs down to just 2.

I ask your understanding for all the silences and posts than ended up in my own journals than out here for all to read.  I needed to glue a few things back together, get a few things straightened up and out and decide what needed to be done.

This has meant a wee bit of a deadline crunch as school started back and the phone began to ring for substitute teaching work.  I’ve taught all but  4 days so far with the many overcrowded classrooms around town.  I’ve gone from Kindergarten to Grade 12 in 48 hours, taught in both languages at 5 different schools and enjoyed every minute of it.  I’ve come home to check charts for the classes I am teaching in Toronto next week, snip floss or draw the final illustrations for Emily Finds A Dragon which we are trying to get to the printers by the end of the month.

Sleep has been a slightly scarce commodity, but I am loving every minute of each of the things I am doing.

I kept thinking of all these long entries to write and post... but then would run out of energy before I had time to post them!  Now I realize that it’s not about how much you write or how often, it’s just about sharing when you can.

Welcome Back to the Dragon’s Musings. 

10 comments:

Kathy A. said...

It is nice to hear from you Jennifer.
Sometimes life just takes over and things have to be readjusted. I am glad that you feel that you are healing and ready to be out there again. Look forward to future posts.

Jo-Ann said...
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Jo-Ann said...

Looking forward to see you next weekend @ Creativ Festival!

xinef said...

Glad to see you back blogging. Also looking forward to your classes next week in Toronto.

ArchangelDecker said...

I'm sorry to hear you've been having a rough go of it.


Sending you gentle hugs and prayers to you and your family. The death of a beloved parent is always hard. (I lost my father to cancer when I was 27 and I know how difficult it still is to cope with some days).

Teresa said...

Great to see you back, Jen! Have a wonderful time at the Festival... and remember to take care of you! HUGS!

Silverlotus said...

I'm so glad to see that you are posting again. You are such an inspiration! I do hope you've been able to take some time to take care of yourself along with everyone else.

I'm really looking forward to your classes next week!

Anonymous said...

Welcome back! We missed your rays of sunshine and encouragement! Wish I was going to be in TO...those pattern teasers look amazing!!!hmmm...flights to TO....

Stacey in NS

kwltnmoma said...

Glad to 'see' you back. And yes, you do have to take care of yourself and yours first!! You/they are the most important people in your life!! See you next weekend,
Karen Mc

Stephanie said...

((hugs)) Happy to have you back and musing again :)